If, But and Why

From "Sleepless Nights - Dreaming Of You" my 2nd book.

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If I could get inside my head.
If I could get inside my heart.
If I could get inside my thoughts.
If I could read through every line I speak.

If I could change history.
If I could read your mind.
If I could get back into your heart.
If I could of met you again for the first time.

If I could remake the decisions I made.
If I could stop myself from doing things.
If I could stop myself from meeting people.

If I could change my life plan.
If I could change every word I wrote.

If I could make sure I never met anyone else.
If I could make sure I never got in debt.
If I could make sure I never had that job.

If I hadn’t slept with them.
If I had never felt lust.
If I had never felt longing.
If I had never felt love.
If I had never cried over them.
If I had never wanted them back.

Only,
If I wasn’t human.